I'm tired, tired, tired, every single day. There is nothing that brings me joy at this point. I can't draw, I can't write, I can't even find it within me to make web layouts, my former pride and joy. I don't play video games and I don't watch shows or movies or YouTube videos. What do I even DO?

I just sit around, play online Mahjong, stare at photos for 10 hours a day. I've been working on that AMV but even that kind of thing is a torture method for a lobotomite like me. Farming clips can be draining. I find no joy in, and I haven't bothered to read in God knows how long.. Will a person like me EVER deserve human rights? I thought I was going to get a job the other week but they ghosted me after telling me I'd secured it lol my life is such a pain lol~~~ kill me now~~

My dad has been buying my medication off of me again too, it's really pissing me off. He positions it like I only have to do it if I want to but I'm forced into it. He has his own prescription but he takes way more than he's supposed to and bothers me to provide him more than half of my own supply for way cheaper than any self respecting drug dealer would sell it for. You're a grown adult man, did nobody tell you about getting a job lol? And do you not have anyone to hook you up lol? None of your billion friends on Facebook you talk to? Go die

I can't even go on walks without feeling shitty anymore. Whatever though. I think loneliness is just driving me crazy. I need to see my friends again. My brother landed back in Australia this morning so hopefully we can hang out soon...

じゃあね〜